Testimony 101

Testimony 101
from anonymous, again:

I thought, ‘I just need this drink and I am okay.’ I would be okay. Okay to pretend, smile, be strong, to endure, to compose, to deal like nothing was wrong. It was the answer to cope.
Later however, I realized it was not okay and certainly not the answer. It was a temporary fix for covering and excusing my pain and past. Also, entangled my future and present with more toxins and regrets. I learned this suppression was targeting the people I loved around me. My toxic coping methods were hell bound.
Too heavy on drinking alcohol, I couldn’t lift a hand to help my own child calling out to me. What about her pain of her mother not listening? I was creating toxins in her.
So, I stopped… I tried to but the void wouldn’t go away so other addictions occurred. Relationships, porn, stealing, and built up anger are what I stirred in a new toxic cup.. I regret I did not push away.
Late nights out with friends while kids growing up seeing the change but I thought I was hiding it all. No.
Jesus called out to me when I was knee deep in the mud.
My boyfriend at the time started going to church so I went because I didn’t want to lose him. I found or was found walking up to the alter. Everything else ceased around me and just Jesus beckoning me of all people to Him (the Holy God) to be reckoned with Him. Jesus.
The weight and anger and hardness of my heart was lifted off of me. Weight and this sack of sorrow I didn’t know was weighing me down or that I had been trying to carry it. I need Him.
My desire changed, thoughts, aspirations, and hope began. God’s undying love and Spirit are real to me.
Today, alcohol, drugs, sexual immorality, self pleasure of going out, unforgiving of myself, and others (still praying and working on that at times) are nailed on the cross… All my shame and sins.
All because Jesus loves us so much and obeyed our heavenly Father, He died for us and rose three days later. He desires to be with us forever.
The miracle of my children accepting Jesus into their life was healing to my soul. I was afraid because of my sins and past actions, they wouldn’t come but they did. Jesus happened.
What an amazing grace that I could have never earned or deserved.
Now, we homeschool and their father which was my boyfriend I followed to church is my husband. I thank God for His mercy, grace, and constant healing in our family.
Come to Jesus. He will save you. He loves you no matter Your past. He desires to be with you forever.

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HAVE THINE OWN WAY

Words: Adelaide A. Pollard Music: George C. Stebbins

Isaiah 64:8 “But now, O LORD, thou art our father; we are the clay, and thou our potter; and we all are the work of thy hand.”

Have Thine own way, Lord! Have Thine own way! Thou art the Potter, I am the clay. Mold me and make me after Thy will, While I am waiting, yielded and still. Have Thine own way, Lord! Have Thine own way! Search me and try me, Master, today! Whiter than snow, Lord, wash me just now, As in Thy presence humbly I bow. Have Thine own way, Lord! Have Thine own way! Wounded and weary, help me, I pray! Power, all power, surely is Thine! Touch me and heal me, Savior divine. Have Thine own way, Lord! Have Thine own way! Hold o’er my being absolute sway! Fill with Thy Spirit ’till all shall see Christ only, always, living in me.

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Hymn # 72 MY SAVIOR FIRST OF ALL

Words: Fanny J. Crosby Music: John R. Sweney

Psalm 17:15 “As for me, I will behold thy face in righteousness: I shall be satisfied, when I awake, with thy likeness.”

When my lifework is ended, and I cross the swelling tide, When the bright and glorious morning I shall see; I shall know my Redeemer when I reach the other side, And His smile will be the first to welcome me. Refrain I shall know (I shall know Him) Him, I shall know Him, And redeemed by His side I shall stand; I shall know (I shall know Him) Him, I shall know Him, By the prints of the nails in His hand. Oh, the soul thrilling rapture when I view His blessed face, And the luster of His kindly beaming eye; How my full heart will praise Him for the mercy, love, and grace, That prepare for me a mansion in the sky. Refrain I shall know (I shall know Him) Him, I shall know Him, And redeemed by His side I shall stand; I shall know (I shall know Him) Him, I shall know Him, By the prints of the nails in His hand. Oh, the dear ones in glory, how they beckon me to come, And our parting at the river I recall; To the sweet vales of Eden they will sing my welcome home; But I long to meet my Savior first of all. Refrain I shall know (I shall know Him) Him, I shall know Him, And redeemed by His side I shall stand; I shall know (I shall know Him) Him, I shall know Him, By the prints of the nails in His hand. Through the gates to the city in a robe of spotless white, He will lead me where no tears will ever fall; In the glad song of ages I shall mingle with delight; But I long to meet my Savior first of all. Refrain I shall know (I shall know Him) Him, I shall know Him, And redeemed by His side I shall stand; I shall know (I shall know Him) Him, I shall know Him, By the prints of the nails in His hand.

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HE HIDETH MY SOUL

Hymn # 228

Words: Fanny J. Crosby

Music: William J. Kirkpatrick

Exodus 33:22 “And it shall come to pass, while my glory passeth by, that I will put thee in a clift of the rock, and will cover thee with my hand while I pass by:”

A wonderful Savior is Jesus my Lord, A wonderful Savior to me; He hideth my soul in the cleft of the rock, Where rivers of pleasure I see. Refrain He hideth my soul in the cleft of the rock That shadows a dry, thirsty land; He hideth my life with the depths of His love, And covers me there with His hand, And covers me there with His hand. A wonderful Savior is Jesus my Lord, He taketh my burden away; He holdeth me up, and I shall not be moved, He giveth me strength as my day. Refrain He hideth my soul in the cleft of the rock That shadows a dry, thirsty land; He hideth my life with the depths of His love, And covers me there with His hand, And covers me there with His hand. With numberless blessings each moment He crowns, And filled with His fullness divine, I sing in my rapture, oh, glory to God For such a Redeemer as mine! Refrain He hideth my soul in the cleft of the rock That shadows a dry, thirsty land; He hideth my life with the depths of His love, And covers me there with His hand, And covers me there with His hand. When clothed in His brightness, transported I rise To meet Him in clouds of the sky, His perfect salvation, His wonderful love I’ll shout with the millions on high. Refrain He hideth my soul in the cleft of the rock That shadows a dry, thirsty land; He hideth my life with the depths of His love, And covers me there with His hand, And covers me there with His hand.

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Hymn # 94 OH, I WANT TO SEE HIM Words and Music: R.H. Cornelius

1 John 3:2 “Beloved, now are we the sons of God, and it doth not yet appear what we shall be: but we know that, when he shall appear, we shall be like him; for we shall see him as he is.”

As I journey thro’ the land, singing as I go, Pointing souls to Calvary – to the crimson flow, Many arrows pierce my soul from without, within; But my Lord leads me on, thro’ Him I must win. Refrain O I want to see Him, look upon His face, There to sing forever of His saving grace; On the streets of glory let me lift my voice, Cares all past, home at last, ever to rejoice. When in service for my Lord dark may be the night, But I’ll cling more close to Him, He will give me light; Satan’s snares may vex my soul, turn my tho’ts aside; But my Lord goes ahead, leads whate’er betide. Refrain O I want to see Him, look upon His face, There to sing forever of His saving grace; On the streets of glory let me lift my voice, Cares all past, home at last, ever to rejoice. When in valleys low I look tow’rd the mountain height, And behold my Savior there, leading in the fight, With a tender hand outstretched tow’rd the valley low, Guiding me, I can see, as I onward go. Refrain O I want to see Him, look upon His face, There to sing forever of His saving grace; On the streets of glory let me lift my voice, Cares all past, home at last, ever to rejoice. When before me billows rise form the mighty deep, Then my Lord directs my bark; He doth safely keep, And He leads me gently on thro’ this world below; He’s a real Friend to me, O I love Him so. Refrain O I want to see Him, look upon His face, There to sing forever of His saving grace; On the streets of glory let me lift my voice, Cares all past, home at last, ever to rejoice.

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Hymn # 54 ALL BECAUSE OF CALVARY Words and Music: Wendell P. Loveless &#169 1940, renewal 1968 Hope Publishing Co., Carol Stream, IL 60188 All rights reserved John 3:17 “For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.” All my sins are gone, All my sins are gone, All because of Calvary; Life is filled with song, Life is filled with song, All Because of Calvary; Christ my Savior lives, Christ my Savior lives, Lives from sin to set me free; Someday He’s coming, O wondrous, blessed day, All, yes, all because of Calvary.

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Hymn # 15 I’M GLAD I KNOW WHO JESUS IS

Revelation 19:16 “And he hath on his vesture and on his thigh a name written, KING OF KINGS, AND LORD OF LORDS.”

In a little town of Bethlehem so many years ago, They told Him there was no room in the inn. But they had no way of knowing Who they had turned away – The Lamb of God Who would take away their sins.

Refrain I’m glad I know Who Jesus is! I’m glad I know Who Jesus is! He’s more than just a story; He is the King of Glory. I’m glad I know Who Jesus is.

So many people still today don’t know who Jesus is; They’ve never felt His peace within their souls. But I want my life to show them how His love can se them free He’s the only One Who can cleanse and make me whole!

Refrain I’m glad I know Who Jesus is! I’m glad I know who Jesus is! He’s more than just a story; He is the King of Glory. I’m glad I know Who Jesus is.

He’s the Alpha and Omega, the Beginning and the End; He’s Counsellor, Deliverer to me. He’s the Everlasting Father; He is the King of Glory, I’m glad I know Who Jesus is!

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Hymn # 98 GO YE INTO ALL THE WORLD

Words and Music: James McGranahan Mark 16:15 “And he said unto them, Go ye into all the world, and preach the gospel to every creature.”

Far, far away, in heathen darkness dwelling,

Millions of souls forever may be lost; Who, who will go, salvation’s story telling,

Looking to Jesus, minding not the cost?

Refrain All pow’r is given unto Me, All pow’r is given unto Me,

Go ye into all the world and preach the Gospel,

And lo, I am with you alway.

See o’er the world wide open doors inviting, Soldiers of Christ, arise and enter in!

Christians, awake! your forces all uniting, Send forth the Gospel, break the chains of sin.

Refrain All pow’r is given unto Me, All pow’r is given unto Me, Go ye into all the world and preach the Gospel, And lo, I am with you alway.

Why will ye die? the voice of God is calling; Why will ye die? re-echo in His name; Jesus hath died to save from death appalling, Life and salvation therefore go proclaim.

Refrain All pow’r is given unto Me, All pow’r is given unto Me, Go ye into all the world and preach the Gospel,

And lo, I am with you alway. God speed the day, when those of ev’ry nation, Glory to God! triumphantly shall sing; Ransomed, redeemed, rejoicing in salvation, Shout, Hallelujah! for the Lord is King.

Refrain All pow’r is given unto Me, All pow’r is given unto Me,

Go ye into all the world and preach the Gospel, And lo, I am with you alway.

All Because of Calvary

Hymn # 54 ALL BECAUSE OF CALVARY

John 3:17 “For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.”

All my sins are gone, All my sins are gone, All because of Calvary;

Life is filled with song, Life is filled with song, All Because of Calvary; Christ my Savior lives, Christ my Savior lives, Lives from sin to set me free; Someday He’s coming, O wondrous, blessed day, All, yes, all because of Calvary.

He Is MINE

Hymn # 11 HE IS MINE Words and Music: Diane Wilkinson &#169 Songs of Greater Vision/BMI Song of Solomon 2:16 My beloved is mine, and I am his: Long before the fall of man God designed a master plan, He exchanged the sinner for the sinless One; Jesus left His throne on high, came to earth to bleed and die, He said, “Father, not My will, but Thine be done.” Refrain He is Mine, (He is mine), He is Mine, (He is mine) I am blessed beyond all measure, He is mine! I have pardon full and free through the blood He shed for me Safe forever I shall be, He is mine. Through God’s mercy and His grace He prepares for us a place, And words cannot describe the matchless beauty there; We will praise this perfect Lamb, King of kings, the great I AM, He has made the joys of Heaven ours to share. Refrain He is Mine, (He is mine), He is Mine, (He is mine) I am blessed beyond all measure, He is mine! I have pardon full and free through the blood He shed for me Safe forever I shall be, He is mine.